7 Years Later.

Somehow, I randomly remembered this blog I used to have. Haven't visited this part of myself in years. For the past few minutes I have been revisiting pieces of myself, that over the years, I have become less aware of. I realize that I may have been slightly depressed. I still haven't found what I've been searching for. I also realized, I'm funny as fuck, somewhat of a poet and... horrible at photoshopping pics. Writing however, I believe I have a knack for. Even though I don't do it as much as I should... notepads, good pencils, gel pens, memoirs and planners still call me like an ex when he finds out that you're skin is popping and you're doing great in life. 

Writing is just so personal. I honestly don't mind if no one reads. I just like to go over my own stuff and laugh at the witty shit I come up with. 

It's really mind blowing to me that I still wake up around 3:26 am almost every night. [Insert Home Alone pic here] What is wrong with me? I actually just googled this and creeped myself all the way out, fuck.

Long story short: I graduated college. Got an awesome job. Moved. Had a boyfriend. Quit him. Lost 40 lbs, but its creeping back up. No kids. Same jeep lol (which I'll stop being stubborn and change soon) Traveled a bit. Dated a lot. Got some stories to tell. All in all, some old G...or Jai. 

I believe I'll pick this up again. It's mildly therapeutic. I like Blogging. I've been wanting to get into photography and I think this could work its way into being the perfect platform, IF anyone uses Blogger anymore, crickets. Even if I'm the only one here...Hello again 🌹

The Last of a Dying Breed

Jamie= Realness
Sometimes I put too much faith in people.
Alot of times... I am naive.
I am honest 98% of the time.
I generally stay to myself.
And sometimes I feel out of place.
I dont really care what you feel.
Don't really care for your opinion, period.
I KNOW you think I'm weird, but you can kiss my ass.
I've had alot of people let me down
I smile anyway.
I'm a perfectionist {actually it's kinda like OCD}.
I mean everything I say.
I know when you're lying, don't underestimate me.
I analyze e v e r y t h i n g.
I love to be in control.
I love competition.
I'm aware that you are interested in me, think its not obvious?
How could you not be?

Ranting...

--Its just way too hot. Would I be strange if I carried an umbrella to shield myself from the massive ass rays that the sun is beaming? Probably, but honestly, I don't care.

--ATTN: black girls, blonde weave is not hot. Stop buying it, stop wearing it, stop telling your cousin's baby mama Tee-tee that it looks good. Only two people on this earth can wear it properly, Mary J. Blige and Beyonce, that does not and never will include you...

--Skinny jeans are meant for [gasp!] --skinny people...females, not men.

--How come some people wake up on shitty mode? Like...everyday? The type of people that can't stand themselves so they try and bring everybody else down. Just cynical and negative, always talking like they really have some shit to say, but exude ignorance. To all those people out there like that (cause I know a few), shut the fuck up already.

--I'm trying, hmm...I want to stop cursing. I really do, its not cute. But then I get annoyed.

--Why is love so wanted? Because when you have it (relationship wise), it makes you crazy and when it leaves you (because it always does..) it drives you insane. Just messes up your whole perspective and breaks you down.



..ok, Im done :)

I, Jamie LaShei'

...take me, myself, to be my best friend and inspiration, to be true and genuine from this day forward, for better and for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish my self while inspiring others from this day forward, until death do I part.

self love is such a beautiful thing.

Love Survives

Couldn't have said it better myself.

Funny how we criticized this man

for all that he was

now we revel in his creativity.

Today nor tommorow is promised.

I wish the world could have let him know that he meant so much

while he was here.

Because in the end,

thats all anyone truly wants.

Rest in Peace

Chasing Wind

Your energy is incredible
Captivating even, takes me to a level of extreme calmness
When we are together its like nothing else in this world
You are no stranger to every part of me
My skin, my hair
Feels the exact same way everytime
But it never gets old
This is what I hope love feels like
If so, then lovers you have many
I would reciprocate the feeling
But you leave as quickly as you arrive
Its possible to love you, but impossible to keep you
so I try to only love you, when you come around

- Jamie LaShei'

And when I can't sleep..

it's NOT you that I miss...

Bought my ticket, I was first in line

This has got to be the cutest dude ever.

That smile...

[sigh]

Promise Yourself

-To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.

-To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

-To give so much time to improving yourself that you have no time to criticize others.

-To think well of yourself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud word, but in great deeds.

-To live in the faith that the whole world is on your side, so long as you are true to the best that is in you.

Too much I dont give a fuck in my cup

Its spilling all over the place. I have decided that caring about the way that people feel about me is not an option anymore. It takes too much energy. I just cant be nice anymore, niggas is trippin. You have to stand your ground and not be ran the hell over cause some people will stop, back up and run over you again and again. People tell me Im mean all the time. No, I am assertive. And the more ignorant people that I run into, the more assertive I get. Dont get me wrong, I don't go out yelling and fucking up birthday cakes. My point is basically, don't let people take advantage of you or make you feel uncomfortable. Get what you want out of life! Stop worrying about what people are saying, and just do you. Cause chances are they dont matter and they are wishing they could be just like you. You can't live your life waiting on someone else's approval. Its you that has to live with the desicions you make.